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January 12th, 2012 11:14 pm
I'm not dead! [
[ mood | awake ]

So I see it's been 3 years since I've posted. I suck. And after this it'll probably be like 3 more, lol. So what's been going on? I went to Harvard, learned fluent Japanese, started a successful business & bought a working line German Shepherd Dog named Remington, who is my prince. <3

Does anyone know how to get rid of the damn ads do my layout looks like it should again? Help is appreciated. Thanks dolls, hope you've been well!


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August 3rd, 2009 10:26 pm
[ mood | sad ]

In celebration of Shark Week, please visit the following website to sign a petition to stop shark finning:

Ocean Conservancy: Stop Shark Finning

Regardless of how you feel about sharks personally, there's no denying that they are a vital part of our ecosystem and without them our oceans would crumble. Sharks DO have a purpose, and they have a right to live. Remember that they were here first, and the oceans belong to them, not us. Let's learn to coexist in harmony with these beautiful animals.


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July 16th, 2009 1:24 am
Writer's Block: 5//7//5 [
[ mood | depressed ]

Sum up your day in the form of a haiku.
Iljimae is done.
Now what am I gonna watch.
I love Lee Jun Ki.

Um.  Yeah.  xD  So I've been watching this Korean drama from last year called Iljimae (which is freakin' AWESOME and you should all be watching it) and tonight I watched the last one, which sucks, cause now there's nothing good on.

JDramas aren't as good as they used to be... I'm liking "BOSS" right now I guess... But where are all the hot guys?  I mean, Ikuta Toma can't be in EVERYTHING...

I hope you guys are watching the news, because our shit-head President, OOPS I MEAN esteemed Messiah, is really effing us royal.  His latest "car czar" is an admitted COMMUNIST.  Dudes, I don't know where all this Obama worship bullshit came from, but people are FINALLY realizing he SUCKS.  I could say "I told you so," like, until I turn effin' blue so all I'll say is this - when it's time to vote again, DON'T VOTE FOR IDIOTS.

Ah there's another HP movie out?  Bleh.  Those movies are crap lately.  Is this one any better?  Or should I wait for cable, so I don't have to pay 15 bucks for a small Coke... -_-

Muh sexay Japanese guy hasn't emailed me back in three days... I guess I deserve it, for ignoring everyone else who emailed me in the past on there.  Karma, and all that crap.  I should have known better, though.  Nothing ever works out for me.

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July 5th, 2009 8:47 pm
Well, damn... [
[ mood | melancholy ]

So if you remember, I had an ENT appointment at the Cleveland Clinic on the 30th about my headaches.  I've ALWAYS felt like it's sinus-related, because if I cry or it's going to rain outside, the headache worsens.  I had a CT scan done on the 22nd and brought it.

Doctor walks in and breaks my heart - there isn't a damn thing wrong with my sinuses, so it's not the problem.  I was upset because this meant there was no fix.  This guy was going to be my last hope - now my only options are hospitalization and surgery.

He recommended a program at the CC called IMATCH, an inpatient 3-week treatment plan that seems like glorified drug rehab to me.  For 4 days they flush any medicine out of your system and then the rest of the time, you do counseling, exercise, more medicine...

Yeah sounds like total bs, doesn't it?  That's what I said.  And the website for the program says it doesn't cure headaches - it teaches you to live through the pain.  UH, SCREW THAT CRAP.  It's really easy for some queer ass psychologist who's never had chronic, horrible pain in her life to tell me to push through it.  Effe that, I'm not doing it.  Plus, my mom CAN'T WALK.  I absolutely cannot leave this house for that long, I'm the only one taking care of her and the pets.

My other option is a guy who does surgery on headaches - he removes part of the nerve or muscle or something in your forehead, which sounds horrifying, but apparently it's helped people.  My dad is completely against it, though.  I guess the thought of some guy ripping my head open is distressing.

I dunno, I'm just ready to give up.  I really can't do this anymore.  I want you to sit back and imagine the worst migraine you've ever had - now imagine that it never goes away, it's there every day, you can't go to movies, or concerts because they make it worse.  You can't work, go to school, or even get out of bed most of the time.  You're always angry, tired, and depressed.  Nothing is as fun as it should be.

That's my life.  That's what it's been like for years.  I'm just so tired of this.  We can put a man on the freakin' MOON but we can't stop a headache.  Ugh.


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June 27th, 2009 10:24 pm
9 Michael Jackson "Bad" Icons [
[ mood | pensive ]

Remember how I said I was done making icons? I lied. Well, partially - I wanted to make one or two "Bad" video icons for myself, since the song is special to me, but then I got carried away and made a few. I'd like to share them now with other fans, hoping they might bring a little comfort to those of us saddened.

9 Michael Jackson "Bad" Video Icons


But they say the sky's the limit...Collapse )

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June 27th, 2009 5:39 pm
Remembering Two Icons [
[ mood | thoughtful ]

So I think I've been a little bit in shock about the death of Michael Jackson, and it's only now setting in that it's real.  Admittedly, at first I was so devastated by the loss of Farrah Fawcett that I initially felt a tinge of anger at Jackson's passing for overshadowing hers.

I'm only 23, obviously after Farrah's time - but regardless of age, she is the complete iconic image of the 70's era.  When someone my age thinks "70's", you think "Farrah."  The smile, the way she shone, that hair - when I look at her the way she was, I imagine my mom and her sisters being the same age, wearing the same clothes and experiencing the same decade.

No one truly understands what battling cancer is like unless they've done it - and I can, unfortunately, count myself among those who do.  I had cancer at age 11, and for a year I fought for my life while being poisoned to death.  I can't imagine doing it for 2 years, knowing deep down the fight is futile.  But Farrah, like a champion, battled on courageously despite the hopelessness, and was brave enough to share her experience with the world so that maybe more people will have themselves screened for cancers frequently and save lives.

Rest in peace, beautiful angel.

Now that it's had a chance to sink in, the loss of Jackson is starting to get to me.  My mother and her sisters danced to the Jackson 5 when she was fresh out of high school.  20 years later, her daughter would be doing the same.  One of my parents' most fond memories of my childhood is from when I was between 1-2 years old.  They recall me standing in front of the TV every time the "Bad" video came on, dancing like crazy and singing along.  Then one day during a visit to my grandfather's workplace, there was a poster of Jackson on the wall.  I ran over to it, all excited, pointed and said, "Oh no, I bad!"

I don't remember much along the lines of music and television throughout my early childhood, but I remember very clearly waiting in anticipation for the movie-like, epic productions that were his music videos.  Watching Black or White and Remember the Time this weekend, I'm instantly taken back to being a kid pre-cancer, when my mom and dad and I were playing hard and having so much fun, and I wish so badly I could go back.  Through every facet of my life, every hardship, every celebration, Michael Jackson was there.

For my mother, the older videos of the Jackson 5 appearing on Ed Sullivan and American Bandstand bring back flooding memories of her sister, Janet, who at only 19 mos. younger than my mother was her best friend growing up.  In August 07, we lost our Janet when she was killed by her husband the day after filing for divorce.  Missing her now more than ever now that this has happened, my mom is really depressed.

I think what most of us are grieving over now is the total loss of someone so prominent in our lives for so long - it feels like part of our pasts, our entire lives, is gone forever.  Now that he's dead, we can never get those times back.  Losing Farrah and Ed McMahon on top of it, it's like huge staples in our daily lives for so long have vanished and those days are far behind us.  With the world as it is now, I think we all long for those better days.

And it's a loss for America - he may have been a bit of a freak, but he was OUR freak... A little boy from the middle of nowhere, Indiana who grew up to be the world's most famous entertainer, he belonged to all of us, our crazy little Michael.

Suddenly, I feel very sad... And I even cry slightly, like right now, and I guess it's weird that I am, but I can't help it.

So today, I paid my own little tribute to him, 20 years after dancing to that video in the first year of my life, I got in the car, put the windows down, and blasted "Bad" as loudly as I could as I drove across town.

Goodbye, Michael.  I hope you are finally at peace.


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June 25th, 2009 9:51 pm
Lmfao I am so lame... [
Suddenly I got this incredibly stupid idea... I couldn't resist...

Dumbest thing EVERCollapse )

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June 25th, 2009 2:42 pm
[ mood | relieved ]

So today I took my mom to her orthopedic surgeon for her first follow up since her surgery on the 13th of May, and FINALLY got the first good news about it since this happened two and a half years ago.

The X-Ray looks AMAZING - the new plate and screws are in place and in tact, and the bone looks so good that for the first time, you can't tell where the fracture is.  I burst into tears when I saw it.  It's finally healing.

Anyway, he said she can put weight on it 20 days earlier than originally predicted - the day is July 22nd.  He said he expects it to be fully healed and fine by then.  I can't begin to tell you how happy and relieved this makes us - we have been waiting so long to hear those words.  This has been absolute Hell for both of us, and it's finally coming to an end and we can move on with our lives.

Lmao, I just found out Lee Jun Ki joined the ARMY.  I'm not so much worried about the possibility of death and injury as I am about.... "other" things...  xD He's much too pretty for the army.

Does anyone here watch True Blood?  I love that damn show. xD.  Not as much as The Tudors, though, but that's not as good without Anne Boleyn.

Yeah, I'm bored...


R.I.P. Farrah Fawcett

...and Michael Jackson *shocked*

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June 22nd, 2009 6:18 pm
Life Sucks, xD [
[ mood | depressed ]

So lately people have been depressed, and it can't be helped I suppose, because the world totally sucks right now.  Every week another little girl is abducted, raped and killed, the world is in turmoil, we have the worst president ever *cough*...

Anyway, I really don't want to sound like a Debbie Downer, but maybe it will make people feel better about their own crap.  So here's a rundown of the past 2 months:

  • My mother broke her femur in Nov. 06.  The initial surgery implanted a plate and screws, which broke in August 07.  The second surgery removed the broken hardware and replaced it with a rod.  Last Dec., the rod broke (which apparently never happens) and on May 13th she had her third surgery to remove the rod.  This time we used a new surgeon, and once he began operating, he realized the bone had not healed AT ALL in two and a half years - so he put in yet another plate and a bone graft.  Three months bedrest.  Again.  No walking at all.  He believes the drug Fosamax is to blame, and we're currently suing them.
  • Because of the above, my mother has spent a combined total of one year unable to walk and in horrible pain.  And me?  I've had to halt my entire life - no one in my family has helped us at all with this, so I have been a nurse/therapist/maid/chef/housekeeper for nearly three years.  I can't work.  I can't go to school.  I can't do anything.  I was supposed to move to Orlando, start pre-Vet school, and then go to Japan to study abroad.  I had to cancel all of it.
  • Last week, my grandmother had a stroke.  She needs surgery on her carotid artery.
  • Same night, my uncle had a heart attack.  He's doing alright, stints were implanted.
  • I have been diagnosed with Fibromyalgia (a term doctors use to describe full body constant pain) but I don't believe I even have it - I think it's just my body breaking down as a result of the chemo and radiation for my cancer at 11.
  • My chronic, daily headaches are worse than ever - concluding that my sinus passages are most likely too narrow (another pleasant radiation side effect), I will have to soon undergo surgery to open them.
  • The scar tissue where the tumor was is so painful that yawning is excruciating.  An MRI revealed my jaw is a mangled mess from the cancer, and my doctor said recent 10+ year post chemo/radiation studies indicate this sort of pain is attributed to another cancer, bone necropsy, or both.  I have to follow up every two months to make sure neither is happening.  If it does, I'll have to have surgery to replace the entire jaw bone.
  • My dog is extremely sick.
  • I haven't been able to ride my horse in months.
  • A close friend's horse who I knew since the day she bought him in '99 fell and broke both of his front legs and was put down on the spot.
So yeah.  Everything is a total freakin' mess.  And I will be completely honest with you right now - if this headache problem isn't fixed (because I can't function anymore) I feel like there's only one other way to escape it.  You can probably guess what I mean.

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June 19th, 2009 4:47 pm
The Truth About Popular "Artist" Mijn Schatje [
[ mood | aggravated ]

Some of you may be familiar with popular French artist Mijn Schatje, who produces digital art and has been featured in numerous galleries and publications.  She has also received awards for her work, and has done campaigns for Sony and a clothing line called Fornarnia.

However, it has been discovered by members of the ball jointed doll community Den of Angels that Mijn's art pieces are simply digital tracings of photographs stolen from doll owners and manufacturers.  She has also stolen art and images from well known artists like Audrey Kawasaki, Lisa Frank, Reebok, and even a rubber stamp set, all the while claiming her art works are her own 100% original creations.

When notifed about the theft and use of their images, the involved parties were outraged and demanded that the art be taken down, which Mijn has not done.  Several doll companies and artists are now persuing legal action against her.

Regardless of whether or not you have interest in the subject matter, this person has made a LOT of money by stealing the work of other artists, who were not asked for permission or credited.  There is a big difference between reference and theft - what Mijn has done is wrong on many levels.  I feel for the victims who have been robbed - they should be the ones getting the praise and compensation.

The evidence is overwhelming - and so I ask each and every one of you to please visit the following website:


If this issue angers you, then please post this to your journals and help to spread the word.  The goal is to inform everyone and put an end to the plagiarism, and seek justice for those robbed.  I do not, however, condone "flaming" of this person or anyone else involved - remember that the appropriate actions are already taking place, and the mission now is to inform the world.

Thank you for reading,


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June 18th, 2009 10:49 pm
I'm Back! [
[ mood | blah ]

Well hello beautiful! xP

I've renamed my journal from bandaij_icons to roketto - just because roketto is the name of my domain, and I wanted to embed it.  xD 15 bucks down the drain!  Haha.

Anyway, I also changed the layout, so check it out!

So what does this mean for bandaij_icons?   Unfortunately, it means no more icons - I am just too busy with life to make graphics like I used to.  The existing icons will stay up, however, and are still useable.  The rules still apply, however, and I MUST be credited.  But I will no longer be posting new graphics.

So what's new, then?  Well, I'm big into ball jointed dolls now, and I'll be posting frequently with pics and info on my collection.  And as usual, there will be crazy rabid fangirl posts about my obsessions.  My current one?  The Joker xD.

I'll also be doing the usual angsty I hate the world posts like everyone else.  Otherwise I couldn't call it a livejournal, now could I!?

Anyway if you're from deviantART or Den of Angels, feel free to add me to your friends list and I'll add you back - I'd love to expand my friend base.


EDIT:  I also have a question: Is there any way to make my comment/entry pages the same as my main page WITHOUT switching to s2?

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February 6th, 2008 11:19 pm
Ebay SUCKS. [
[ mood | pissed off ]

Ebay is starting some pretty nasty stuff.  It SOUNDS good on the surface, but digging a little deeper, it's NOT.  It's BAD.  For sellers and buyers.

Under the cut is a post about it from a seller on DoA.  I highly encourage anyone who uses Ebay to read.

The plan is for everyone who thinks this is BULLSHIT to boycott Ebay for at least a week, however I think it would be beneficial to extend that until some sort of agreement is reached.  Plus emails to both Ebay AND Paypal will help.  If they're bombarded enough, things will happen.

I sell doll things on Ebay to make money, and them taking up to 66 percent of my profits would be horrible.

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January 2nd, 2008 7:21 pm
[ mood | hyper ]




Hahaha so what's been going on, homies?  I MISS U GAIZ.

Lololz I bought another BJD but it's not here yet.  I'm making it into a mini Aya Fuyjimiya cause I'm OBSESSED.

And I'm also obsessed with Genjyo Sanzo these days, OMGHOT.

I have so many icons to submit xD But I'm too lazy...

I've started taking kendo lessons twice a week.  I'm really good at it xD I'M A SAMURAI MASTAH!


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October 17th, 2007 10:02 pm
WHERE IZ U ASH???!!! [
[ mood | blah ]

So, (xD so again...) I need to send a message since my emails aren't getting there again?



And now, if you will:




I suppose I could make large person ones too?  xD  I JUST WANT MON-AY.

Here's a pic of my boy Tsukasa modeling one:


If you care about my personal BS to da max, my aunt DOES have breast cancer - bad, my other aun'ts murderer is fighting hard not to be charged, and my mom STILL can't walk.  YEAH SUCKS DON'T IT.

BUT ISN'T THAT WHAT AMERICA'S NEXT TOP MODEL RERUNS ARE FOR?!?!?!?! I don't know what you guys think, but I know I can't get enough of that narcissistic, self centered, whiny ass hypocrite Tyra!  If size 8 is plus size, then at a 2 I must be anorexic!

I have a butt load of icons to post but I'm too lazy, so I need pushing.  YELL AT ME, PEEPZ, YELL.



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August 31st, 2007 4:44 pm
Well damn... [
[ mood | distressed ]

Long story short:

The bastard that killed my aunt is FREE.  They say they're putting the case together but they'd better hurry.

My mom's hardware collapsed in her leg, she had to have six hours of surgery to remove and replace it with a rod in the bone and bone marrow cause it hadn't healed at ALL.  After TEN MONTHS.  Now I'm back to being a nurse, I had to cancel my classes and put moving on hold.

And my great aunt may have breast cancer.



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August 3rd, 2007 9:43 pm
Well.  I'll just get right to it, I suppose.

Yesterday, my Aunt Janet in Florida was murdered by her soon to be ex husband, who killed her in the house and put her in the pool to stage the scene.  It's a big deal there, it's on TV and in the papers.  The bastard is in jail and scheduled to be indicted.

My cousins are 22, 21 and 18 and devastated, they were extremely close to her as I am to my mom, and we're all in total shock.  My mom is distraught and crying, and I just don't really know what to do.  I'm kind of numb, I guess.

She had served him with divorce papers the day before, and the son of a bitch didn't wanna pay up, I guess.

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July 17th, 2007 5:28 pm

There's already dipshits on teh internetz salivating over the chance to ruin Deathly Hallows for those of us a tick too busy to read 700 pages in three hours.  Although if you do that, it's cool I guess.  xD  But those mean bastards ruin everything.  Last year, I had implemented a spoiler free plan, only to be told "OMG, CAN YOU BELIEVE SNAPE KILLED DUMBLEDORE????" in a text message from a friend. -_-

Anyway.  In anticipation of such buttnuts, I will not be online OR ANSWERING MY PHONE at ALL starting the 21st until I finish the book, not that I've been on in the meantime lmao.  Sorry.  I've been busy with crap (literally...) and other junk, and I'm kinda depressed these days for some reason, but yeah.  I PROMISE I'll return post Harry with icons and angst galore.

Why is everyone bitching about that avatar movie.  HELLO, there's like, 59766 male characters, some of them are BOUND to be cast with hot guys.


p.s. Criss Angel is so hot.  Yes, you guessed it.  I'd hit it.

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June 29th, 2007 10:40 pm
Why am I just now learning that there is to be a live action Avatar: The Last Airbender movie from M. Night Shabamalamadingdong?



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June 13th, 2007 10:05 pm
SO OMG.  Oh man I started with "so" AGAIN.


This is really a message to her, xD Since my emails don't seem to be gettin' there.  ANYWAY HERE'S WHAT HAPPENED.


I had to go to the doctor and get pills and everything.  It was BAD.



So stay tuned forrrrrrrrr: Death Note, Saiunkoku Monogatari and Kyou Kara Maou!

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May 19th, 2007 6:33 pm
Birday [

SOOOOO (There I go AGAIN) I have a picture of my Nanday Conure.  Who is still unnamed, because I have so many pets that I've exhausted my name possibilities.  I'm going through a list of anime names xD.

The pet store said he was weaned, however, he is not.  And I have to feed him with a syringe several times daily.  Luckily, I have experience in this with parrots and wild birds, or he'd have starved to death somewhere.

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